When Did You Last Do… Nothing?

Until recently, I’ve lived most of my adult life under the spell of to-do lists. On some level, I believed that fulfilment is the fruit of busyness, target-setting and goal achievement.

After all, success and happiness depend on consistent action — right? This is a half-truth which misses the bigger picture.

A couple months ago, I signed up for a weekend retreat in the countryside organised by a local Buddhist centre. I then gave myself a pat on the back for doing something I knew would be good for my mind, heart, body and soul.

Fast forward to the week of the retreat, and all sorts of objections start popping up:

I have too much to do this week… a retreat will just waste a perfectly good weekend.”

“I can always postpone it to another time.”

“I haven’t been working as hard as other people… Do I deserve this break? Do I really need it?”

I was so close to bailing. But I’m glad I didn’t — I would have filled my weekend with yet more ‘productivity’ and ‘doing’.

Why the resistance?

Decisions made from a place of self-love and self-care often feel great at the time, but the follow-through can be uncomfortable. It takes courage to do something different and be someone else for a change.

Like other retreats I’ve been on, this one encouraged plenty of time for meditation, reflection, communal silence, and doing… nothing.

At first, this felt totally alien. In daily life, I spend so much time addicted to ‘thinking’ that I became angsty when there was no longer any need for me to plot and plan.

But once my withdrawal symptoms faded, a sense of liberation emerged.

For one, being around people in silence with no expectation to make small talk, or perform, was immensely peaceful. Rather than creating a sense of isolation, the consensus was that it brought us into closer connection with one another.

Later in the retreat, I remember sitting with a cup of tea and noticing a family of ducks quietly crossing the lawn. Having meditated for several hours by that point, I really saw those ducks on their little journey. It was a joy.

I had tapped into a natural, nourishing place some might call ‘being mode’.

As you can imagine, heading home was tough.

The Importance of ‘Being’

Modern societies fail to recognise the value of carving out time to do nothing, let alone recharging in solitude.

Most of us get a pitiful amount of ‘annual leave’, time which we feel pressured to fill with yet more frenzied activity.

Tell your colleague that you spent last weekend alone in a remote cabin twiddling your thumbs, and they might well give you an alarmed look.

Such is the emphasis on states of ‘doing’ rather than ‘being’. Yet we need a healthy balance of both to continue on as functioning, resilient human beings.

For every systole, there must follow a phase of diastole.

The heart must pump blood around the body, but it must also relax totally in order to fill with nutritious, oxygen-rich blood for the next cycle.



When a heart is forced to overwork, it becomes hypertrophic — thick and stiffened. In this condition, you can imagine how much harder it becomes for the strained heart to relax and fill with blood. Without blood, there is no life.

Making Time To Be

I was adamant about integrating this lesson back into my life — the ‘real’ world. After all, what good is a retreat if I leave my serenity behind? Many people don’t even have the luxury of retreat at all.

So far, I’ve implied a link between ‘doing’ and ‘output’, but there’s a paradox in there.

By ‘doing mode’ I’m referring to a specific mindset — an emotional attachment to tasks, schedules and plans. It’s possible to be still as a log, lying in bed with all this floating in your head. In which case, you’re under the spell of doing mode.

Similarly, we can be fully connected with the stillness at the core of our being while going about our day mindfully. Again, this ‘being mode’ is more a state of consciousness than a condition dependent on your output.

That said, finding such a place inside us can take time, making it a good idea to create regular periods where no output is expected of you whatsoever.

Meditation is one route to that place, but there are other ways too.

When did you last go for a walk without any agenda? A walk where you didn’t feel the need to call a friend, stop by for groceries or track your calories burnt?

When did you last sit down for a meal and take in all the flavours? A meal without chatter, television or perhaps even your internal critique of the cooking?

When did you last sit down and take it all in? The clouds, the trees, children laughing, dogs barking.

This isn’t primarily about becoming a ‘better’ person, nor is it about becoming more ‘productive’ or more ‘zen’.

These might be worthwhile intentions, but on a deeper level, it’s about remembering that you’re alive.

You are life itself.

Not a machine — a living, breathing, perceiving being.

No amount of busy activity can take that away.

Thanks for reading,


P.S. If you’re interested in creating a more balanced, fulfilling life with more space for BEING, and you’d like support on that, get in touch here and I’ll book you in for a complimentary coaching session.

Originally published at https://www.olipage.com.




Documenting my journey of inner growth and self-discovery. Coaching others to unleash their purpose. Find me here: https://purposeuncaged.com

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Documenting my journey of inner growth and self-discovery. Coaching others to unleash their purpose. Find me here: https://purposeuncaged.com

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